So I called her, it was hard, what do you say? But seriously it's not about me, so buck up klow. She is scared and so am I, the emotion was raw, we both feel it, but we move past it to discuss things in the same way we always do. She explains everything to me, she wants me to know. I will be with her on this journey, this is intractable, not that I want to retract, but this is the first time I have been so strongly pulled on another's journey, a battle, with odd's that are formidable. I know she will fight, and somehow I know I will fight beside her. I've never felt this kind of commitment before, cancer has not touched me that closely. I am the practical one, sometimes the detached, pragmatic one. I will be there is she needs me. The surgery will be soon, the chemo will start and I somehow know it will be hard, I don't know if she will ever return to work she was doing after this, she will see other purpose to her life. But we are forever joined by our time together at work, she sustained me at work in ways she may not know, I need to sustain her now.