Friday, April 13, 2012

I am what I see

Today I went to CrossFit. I have been contemplating my fitness level, or should I say, lack of fitness level. I enjoyed the pilates and yoga at Diva day, 30 minutes of each. And I realized just how out of shape I am. CrossFit appeals because I want results, I don't want to be bored and I don't want anything complicated. I like that they focus on intensity, get'er done.
The baseline test today was brutal. 500 metres on the rowing machine, 40 (yes, 40) squats, 30 sit ups, 20 push ups and 10 chin ups.
By the 20th squat I was pooched. By the 15th sit up I was sure I wouldn't finish, but the 12 push up I was sure I was toast. Big break between push ups and chin ups. I think Mike helped me quite a lot for the last round, but I made it.
I was winded, my legs were like rubber and my chest hurts. My legs are still weak (2 hours later) and my chest is still sore. sheesh.
Now to see if I go back.
the jury is still our

Friday, February 17, 2012

healing

I blogged about a friend who was facing cancer. I was scared, so was she. I love her even more for her courage, I stood in awe as she did everything she needed to do. She decided that she would not allow negativity to be part of her experience with cancer. Sheesh, how the heck do you do that??? But she did, she was amazing, she came to visit and looked better than she had when she was well. WOW. And now, the stage four cancer (generally understood to be a seriously not good thing) has tucked it's tail between it's legs and left the building. Awesome! But then my friend crashed. It took everything she had to fight, the battle won undid her. And I can see how the energy, the adrenaline of a fight lets us do that, then we collapse into a lump and try to understand what just happened. She could not see what life meant anymore, what do you do after saving your own life?? She has talents that she no longer sees, I am so glad I could extend a lifeline. After all, we all need to feel like we have something to contribute. She does, and she will. She just lost sight of that in the overwhelmingness that fighting for your life is. Welcome back my dear friend. You are awesome, and I need you. Seeing you light up with the excitement about what you can offer is just what I needed this week.